♥mY sWeEt.gLoSsY.MuLtiCoLoReD SuGaRLaNd♥

My heart has been away for awhile but eventhough music brings back memories of hurt and torment, you never cease to make me feel safe and loved. I have confused myself when I simply knew all along that you are the only one who can straighten out my creaseful life…thank you for bringing me life and love. Showing me that positivity even if things go wrong makes a whole lotta difference. I’m sorry if i have been a certified pain in the ass for heaps of times, but i’m telling you now, i maybe scattered, stupid and idiotic at times but i am truly positive that you are the person that i wanna be with for the rest of my times. You may be scary and even crazy at times, i may have driven you crazy as well but, like what i’ve been telling you and will continuously tell you that fighting is what we do, we may get tired and restless but i’m still crazy about you…i love you so much.

Haven’t been bloggin for awhile, i’m happy and felt weird, kinda depressed at the same time. Reason being, i’m looking for my career options, not satisfied til i get the F.A. position, already passed 3 screenings in emirates, i dunno how many more to go…(GO GWEN!)

Really bored at the moment, always hoping my baby’s okay, he’s been working really, really hard. always thinkin about him. we spend time together but i’m just missing him heaps.

Hoping for a big turnaround in my life, not being ungrateful or whatever, just wanting for what’s more to life, and more that i can bring to myself, my family and my pretty family in the future.. heehee!

i remember what my best friend told me, "You have to realize your worth…" i will never, ever forget that (thanks cuz!) well, that opened my eyes, and me, realizing what i have and what i can do, made me feel blessed and hopeful, and proud….In addition to that, knowing that i’ve got pretty good, supportive, great friends and my ever happy and complex family…

I always think of ways to make things better, and my life has been really great. I’ve been messed up for awhile, but thanks to bert. I regained my sanity.